Sunday, February 8, 2009

I need help!!!!

Although we have had four weigh ins, and I have lost an average of a pound a week, I am feeling really frustrated and lost. I'm not sure what meal plan to follow and I had a terrible week with exercising. I'm looking for some guidance. I've noticed that alot of my fellow competitors have recently joined weight watchers, is it worth it? How does the at home program fair compared to the meetings? I have been trying to follow weight watchers on my own, but I'm having trouble staying on track. I've also noticed that alot of you count calories. I need a kick in the butt. My goals for this week, are to focus on counting points and writing everything down. I'm so tired of failing, I just want to do it. Thanks again to all of you that continue to provide inspiration. Wish me luck this week.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I can't beleive I'm actually going to say this, but I'm really starting to enjoy working out. I've been doing Bob's Boot Camp video, and whenever I get to the cool down, I feel such a sense of accomplishment.
Good luck this week!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

A -Team Spirit!!

This has been a challenging week. I have had dinner out for three occasions, and have one more tomorrow night. I'm proud of myself for making healthy choices, but I'm dissapointed because I couldn't stick to my points. Small steps cover a lot of ground, and I have to continue to be proud of the positive steps I've been taking.

Here is this morning's breakfast. A cup of sanity, a Blue menu cinnamon raisin bagel with one Tbs. peanut butter and three clementines.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Go Team Angie!!! Everyone did such an awesome job this week. You guys are such motivators and inspirations to me.
I need to find ways to keep my personal enthusiasm going. I've been sticking to most of my goals but have found that I am still having trouble overcoming my emotional eating. Hopefully I will have more success this week. My weekly goal is to forgive myself for the mistakes I've made, and move on in a positive way. Good luck fellow challengers!

Friday, January 16, 2009

I've decided after countless times of joining and re-joining weight watchers to begin this challenge on my own. I am accountable to myself and of course to my team (Go Team Angie!!!!!!). I'm hoping I can do this without my weekly weight watchers weigh ins.
Tuesday was my birthday and I'm proud to say that I didn't over indulge. And I actually stayed within my points budget. I did however slip up last night. Not as bad as I would have normally but I did have to go into my points reserve. I've been trying to figure out what triggered it. I know I wasn't hungry, I just wanted chocolate, and I actually felt like I couldn't control myself. After I had 6 points worth of chocolate, I felt guilty and and I felt tired. I've been reading numerous blogs about 100 calorie packs of snacks. I agree with most of you about how you can never eat just one pack and especially how unhealthy they are for you. So what do you do when you have this uncontrollable urge to snack?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

It's amazing that when you let something go, how much better you begin to feel. It's only been a few days, and already I feel like I'm not continuously consumed by worry. My goal is to let the past be in the past and start fresh. I am commited to droping the anger, fear, dissapointment and resentment and see things from a fresh new perspective. I guess The Secret really does work, who would have thought I'd become a cliche??? You can literally change the way you see a situation, it's that simple. Now to put that to the test....
What is my motivation?? Typically I would say my kids, but, for once in my life, I am my motivation. I deserve to be healthy and happy. I don't have to hide under layers of fat anymore. I don't want to let life pass me by any longer. Year after year have passed me by with only moments of happiness, most of which involved food. When I enjoy things the people that are the most important to me will enjoy spending time with me. In the end, my kids will benefit from this experince as much as I will.
Let the challenge begin!!!!!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

And so, another weight loss journey and hopefully life journey begins....well, almost, January 11, 2009, 2 days before my 34th birthday. What makes this time different? For one, I'm talking about it. And more importantly I'm going to be acoountable to over a hundred people I don't yet know.
In a nutshell, I have been struggling with my weight since I had children. I am a stay at home mom of three children and childcare provider out of my home.
My commitment is to get healthy, emotionally and physically. I have made some mini but huge goals.
1. Drink 8-10 glasses of water a day.
2. Exercise 4 times a week for a minimum of 1/2 hour.
3. Count points/calories.
4. Spend 1 hour a week on my own or without children.
5. Eliminate or release stress causing triggers in my life.
6. Relax, life is too short to be consumed with what other people think.
7. Put myself first, at least some of the time.
8. Stand up for myself.

Numbers 5 - 8 are the most difficult for me. I have made a life long commitment to give back. Unfortuntely this has been at the expense of my own personal stress free time. I am afraid of hurting other people and afraid of people disliking me. I would like to work through these issues, they all contribute to my emotional eating habits. I feel that by putting myself out there and being vulnerable, I will find the strength to overcome this crippling obstacle.